“Will people miss me? Maybe they won’t even notice.” (Quote from my film Falling Apart). Many people call suicide-committers selfish and weak, but not many even attempt to consider what goes on inside a suicidal person’s mind. Often, we become victims of verbal abuse through people calling us ‘attention whores’, or worse; they tell us to just go and kill ourselves to prove that we actually mean what we are saying. While I cannot speak for every single person who has experienced suicidal thoughts, I know the thoughts that have raced through my mind. This post serves the purpose of shedding light on the underlying issues that occur in the minds of suicidal people, and I hope that it will help to increase understanding and awareness regarding these thoughts.
Displacement — Ok, this isn’t exactly a thought per se, but it is something I have seen many people struggling with. Displacement from society makes people imagine that they are inside a glass-wall. No matter how many friends you have or how popular you are, you keep feeling detached as if you don’t belong. This in turn, will make you feel like you shouldn’t continue living, because what’s the point? You are not even a part of this world. You may feel like you are in a trance inside your own personal prison. There is no escape. Self-harm often becomes the next step, as that is a way to make you feel — or even make people see you. If you have someone going through that, there isn’t much you can do other than trying to hang out with the person more and doing things in a pair rather than in a group. Groups often make people feel isolated — no matter how paradoxical that may be. Continue reading